HELLO-GOODBYE
Flower means simplicity.
and it's you that I desire.
SHOUT OUT LOUD
I don't know whether is this love or reliance? But I've told you it's love. You did the same thing.
But why have you need to hurt me? Why are you willing to call a girl but not me? It's just a call. Yes a call away. Is it that hard? Have you ever put yourself in my shoes? Thought what I have thought? No, i guess. Are you just playing a fool with me? Just for the sake boredom that's why you targeted on me. Easy target huh? If you really do love me a bit, a call won't hurt? Just once. Once. Is it so hard to achieve? I don't understand a thing. I dont understand you. I don't understand love. Ultimately, I don't understand me. Yes, me.
I'm just a fucking retard girl. Idiot.
Complain or not.
What's exactly wrong with us? No matter what I do is wrong, wrong and wrong. I'm just a fucking stupid girl who fell in love with a person I have not met through a fucking stupid game called Audition. Damn dumb right?
You're always asking me to cheer me up and expect me to reply your message immediately if not you'll be angry. Aren't you just comparing me with your ex saying that I cant do a better job in comforting you than your ex. Fine la. I suck. And now you're saying that I dont know you. How the fuck would I know you when I haven't even meet you and you don't even trust me at all.
Firstly, I don't even know where you live cos' you don't even want to tell me which means you don't trust me. Will I burn your house down or what? You don't even talk to me on the phone, but just sms. For six months, I haven't even listen to your voice at all. For the case that your phone have been stolen, when I called you, it obviously shows that you can't even face me. You don't trust me and you don't love me. FORGET IT LA. BREAK LA SINCE YOU'RE SO UNHAPPY ABOUT THINGS THAT I DO SO MUCH. Did I say break? Have we even started this r/s? Is this even called a r/s? FUNNY. Being in a r/s with a guy(dont even know whether is it a guy) for 6months w/o talking on phone/facing each other/knowing each other well.
I'm hated.
I'm irritating.
I'm stupid.
I'm ugly.
What more worse can happen to me?
I tried to be friendly, but I was labeled as irritating.
So I tried not to talk too much, emo and dao came out of people's mouth.
I dropped to H1 physics, not having even tried to do SPA which is like 3 more days after. I'm just a coward.
He got a new girlfriend, I heard. Sad at first but Fine after that. And I thought he broke me off because of his parents wanted him to STUDY and now? Big Joke huh?
And maybe I'll get dumped in this week also. Dumped by him, friends and family. Everything is just wrong.
And I'm here facing everything alone.
Everybody seems to be having a great time with loads of friends. But me? Pathetic me. None. Should I laugh in disguise or cry?
And I suddenly miss LiZhen.